University of Life: Fear of Losing

There was one word I learnt from my junior H during the last MARA program.

"KIASU"

or in other word "fear of losing" (wikipedia). Before this, I thought it brings the meaning of excessively hardworking, nerd, or similar to that, but it's proven that I was wrong. I was actually stunned inside my heart when I heart the meaning.

I reflected it upon myself. I always wanted to be someone who win. I always wanted to have things that I wanted. I always wanted to succeed in everything. I worked hard towards my goal. And because of that, I was actually training myself to become someone who is fear of losing. I ever experienced a situation of losing before, it felt like my heart bursting and my veins jam-packed with the gushing extracellular fluids trying to drive themselves out of my body (hyperbolically). Since childhood I was educating myself to become a winner, even the teenage me can't even imagine myself competed public speaking in the state level when I was just 5 years old.

But, that was a long time ago. The 'current' me is not an outspoken person, but rather a silent kind. I cannot accept defeat before, but the 'current' me now thinks that there's no value in winning everything; in fact, the most important thing is the values or meanings of something that I get in my life.

Well, there's no trouble in being Kiasu; and also there's no trouble in being non-Kiasu. Never disparage good manners (eg being kiasu) of other people, because you too will find yourself in hatred of derogation. Above all, what's more important is to get to understand and value everyone and everything that happens in our lives better. And to put simply, "Appreciate and you will be appreciated."

Allah said in the Quran (An-Najm 54: 24-25) :

"Shall Man have whatever he wishes?

(No!) But to Allah belong the last (the hereafter) and the first (the world)."